"Come what may, and love it".

Since the beginning of December, life for my little family has changed pretty drastically. I remember after my little peanut passed away feeling a little lost. The girls had returned to school and Eric was back at work, so life was moving along as it should. But when Caleb was alive he was my day and if he was awake he had to be held upright so that he could breathe. So my days were spent holding and loving my little man. After he passed, I did not feel like I had anything to really "go back to". I remember wondering how I could magnify my calling as a mother when my little ladies were gone all day, and with such a broken heart. But time went on as it does and I filled my time with callings, temple work, and some volunteer work at the girls school. Life was wonderful again. However, since my release from the hospital life is quite different again. I can no longer have any exertion because my heart is still too weak to allow it, I can't go many places because the risk of getting sick is too high and I just can't do it, and I am generally too exhausted to do much of anything but sit on the couch. So once again, I feel like I am in a position where I am wondering how in the world can I be a Mom to my sweet children, and truthfully my heart has been a little bit broken, literally, lol! This past week I decided that I was in desperate need of something "Good". So I started reading the last Conference Ensign and in there was a talk from Elder Wirthlin entitled "Come what may, and love it". If you have not yet had a chance to read it, I would really encourage you to. (Just follow this link-) http://lds.org/ldsorg/v/index.jsp?vgnextoid=2354fccf2b7db010VgnVCM1000004d82620aRCRD&locale=0&sourceId=b5f44bb52a73d110VgnVCM100000176f620a____&hideNav=1 It really did my heart good. We talked about this article for Family Home Evening on Monday and my sweet daughters told me all the reasons why "They Love" me being so sick.

1. I am always in the same place I was when they leave the room. (which NEVER happened before)

2. I am home, so I can still love them.

3. They love that they can run up the stairs and I cannot chase them. (Which my little Sassy is taking FULL advantage of, LOL)

4. They LOVE how kind everyone is to our little family. (In fact after church on Sunday, Hannah said, "Mom I hope that this does not hurt your feelings, but since you got sick PEOPLE LOVE US!" I think that they have really realized the importance of service!)

5. They love pushing my wheelchair, which can have it's own set of dangers! LOL!

6. They love that our family is not as busy as we were. (It was good for me to hear that, because that is something that I am missing a little bit.)

7. But most of all they just love that I am still living and can be their mama.

I love my sweet girls! So this week my goal is to find things "To Love" about my new life. I am still working on it, and it may take a little bit of time, but I am determined to enjoy the time that I have been blessed with.